ALL IT TAKES IS A LITTLE FAITH

Looking at people happy or even contented in their life inspires me to be successful someday. It makes me see myself years from now successful in life – being contented by having the things I want and being happy in what I get. Sometimes I dream being those people who have reached their goals in life.

Yes, I did well along the way, there may be circumstances but I have passed them. Yet, when I’m almost there, ALMOST THERE, that’s when I feel I had to stop and give up. I became tired passing the same direction that I had turned into a different route, in a different way. Then, behind my mind, by passing in this route, I became reckless about what’s ahead of me. I became pathetic.

I have failed my expectations and the people who support me.

If only I could just turn back the time.

If only I had done my best, my very best.

I've tried my best to succeed in the things I do but sometimes “the best isn't good enough.”

But in any chance, by passing in this new way, greater things await for me. I just got to let it sink in that maybe that road that I first traveled wasn't really for me.

I just need faith now.

I Know I Can But...

   With all my failures and drawbacks I've been experiencing lately and making me feel down, sometimes I feel like the world has left me behind. It feels like it's making me feel empty. I'm not sad though, it's just that i don't feel anything in a sense that I don't care about anything. With all the pressure that's been fed to me, makes me want to give up. Is this a challenge that would make me succeed or the challenge that would bring me down? 

   Lately, only two words have been popping in my mind: what if? What if it's not the path i should take? What if it's not what i really wanted? And what if I don't want anything at all? All these questions come to me and makes me feel that there is no hope in what I do, but it's that one question that encourages me to continue: what if? What if i just need to put passion in what I do? What if it really is the path I should take? And what if it's really what I wanted?
   I know I can do better. I know that I can survive in this course I'm taking. I know that I will succeed. It may not be that easy reaching my goals but I know I can.