BLINDED BY THE THOUGHTS OF YOU

So basically I am currently listening to songs with those “romantic” genres to feel (again) how it was like to love.. and it helped. :)

In life there is gonna be that one special person for us. The person who was just a stranger until you became friends. The person who made you feel special by sharing those glances and having fun times together. The person that gave you those “sparks” just by touching his hand. The person reserved in our hearts. The person who you never thought would be that special until you fall for them.  And the person who we thought we could never live without. I know it sounds cheesy but for many reasons, admit it; we've been there and might still be. ;)

Being in love, we end up having those daydreams just thinking about the moments that you would share together. Our moods would tend to change and literally turn us into a really good and stupid person especially when they’re around (oh no!). And sometimes would lead us to do positive and crazy things just to impress them while thinking “all this is for you”. It may sound crazy and totally stupid, but it is love, it has its power.

Thinking about being in love really sends you to heaven, but there’s the thing about love that would certainly drop you into the ground so hard that it breaks all of you. Sometimes, the person who you thought was your everything, doesn't love you back (ouch, I know). All your love for him is unrequited and that’s the saddest part of being in love… it gives you hope but in the end it’s you that is hopeless. It makes your oh-so-happy world upside down and you’d keep on wondering why, why not you. It makes you so confused and devastated that you wanted to tell them straight to the face how you feel about them by telling them “Why not me? Why does it have to be somebody else? Why do you keep looking for someone when I’m here in front of you!” and so many more just to answer your questions but you won’t because you don’t have the courage to do it so it ends with accepting the fact that it’s not you, it’s someone else (*sobs).

The thing is, it doesn't necessarily mean that unrequited love is hopeless. It’s also about giving us lessons that we might use in the coming moments when it’s really our time to find the “love of our life”. It teaches us things that might be useful to keep our relationship with our partner longer and stronger. And that’s what’s nice about it. It might hurt knowing the truth, but we’ll learn to move on.. :)

ALL IT TAKES IS A LITTLE FAITH

Looking at people happy or even contented in their life inspires me to be successful someday. It makes me see myself years from now successful in life – being contented by having the things I want and being happy in what I get. Sometimes I dream being those people who have reached their goals in life.

Yes, I did well along the way, there may be circumstances but I have passed them. Yet, when I’m almost there, ALMOST THERE, that’s when I feel I had to stop and give up. I became tired passing the same direction that I had turned into a different route, in a different way. Then, behind my mind, by passing in this route, I became reckless about what’s ahead of me. I became pathetic.

I have failed my expectations and the people who support me.

If only I could just turn back the time.

If only I had done my best, my very best.

I've tried my best to succeed in the things I do but sometimes “the best isn't good enough.”

But in any chance, by passing in this new way, greater things await for me. I just got to let it sink in that maybe that road that I first traveled wasn't really for me.

I just need faith now.

I Know I Can But...

   With all my failures and drawbacks I've been experiencing lately and making me feel down, sometimes I feel like the world has left me behind. It feels like it's making me feel empty. I'm not sad though, it's just that i don't feel anything in a sense that I don't care about anything. With all the pressure that's been fed to me, makes me want to give up. Is this a challenge that would make me succeed or the challenge that would bring me down? 

   Lately, only two words have been popping in my mind: what if? What if it's not the path i should take? What if it's not what i really wanted? And what if I don't want anything at all? All these questions come to me and makes me feel that there is no hope in what I do, but it's that one question that encourages me to continue: what if? What if i just need to put passion in what I do? What if it really is the path I should take? And what if it's really what I wanted?
   I know I can do better. I know that I can survive in this course I'm taking. I know that I will succeed. It may not be that easy reaching my goals but I know I can.